Its getting pretty close to new year now, only a few days left. I was just reading someone else blog and realised that i come on lj everyday, without fail, yet i hardly ever get my sad ass to write just a few words.
Now as it's close to the new year and i wont be able to sleep tonight this is going to be my new years resolution. Well im going to make them on here and keep them on here, well i'll try my best.
Honestly.
The year has been, hetic, rushed, overwhelming, emotional, amazing. To put it short.
Ok so the biggies i guess:
1) New York- beyond my wildest dreams, and i do mean the shops.
2) The Exams- of course they rear their ugly head just the once in a while but you know i coped.
3) Prom- amazing amazing beautiful night, with only the best friends ever.
4) Leaving school- thats right people im a college girl now. read it and weep. im sure im'a fail.
5) Deciding where the hell to go- Art or A levels lets just say that covers the emotional part.
6) Getting my sad ass out of depression- the hardest cruelst but most worthwhile thing.
7) Stopping myself from loving him like an idiot- so over.
8) Finally, growing up- i've changed beyond belief and so much for the better.

All the stuff in between that happened which i can barely remember but which hurt is damn much at the time being a teenager is the most terryfing but amazing experience ever i think. Its an interesting age this 16 buisness, and it only lasts a year.

Now as 2009 moves ever closer, i dont want to make resolutions, i will never keep them. I want to change things. I just want to make sure that all the things that i wish i did i do and that i wont look back on the year thinking "i should have done that". The list ia gree could, and probably will go on forever, which is why reading this probably isnt a good idea. A to do list of sorts hey, how about i just tell you when i know what it is myself?

1) Get my hair cut, shed all the weight. make it all fresh. (i have made the appointment it WILL happen)
2) Figure out what the hell my own style is, sort through my clothes, look at what i want to wear and what i dont and stick to it.
3) Learn who is really my friend. It sounds mean but after leaving school you realise just how fickle theese things are and that even though you say your going to be friends forever that it might not actually work out that way.
4) Be more organised, the major part of this plan, because there is a plan, really. I want to get blackberry and USE it properly put everything in then i will totes know. either that or buy a filofax.
5) Loose the weight i've gained from starting college, get back down to what iw as when i came home from NY. Get a billion people to notice that im skinny.
6) Find a guy that doenst just want to use me! I will not!! I can not!! allow myself to be used like i have been again. If he doesnt want a relationship then he isnt getting any.
7) Learn to trust my instincts.
8) Become a genius at make up.
9) Master the whole accesorising thing.
10) Go out one night and just do all the things i never would have done last year.
11) Get mysel to moe concerts not jsut say ill go actually do it and make plans.
12) Read the classics.
13) Revise for my exams BBBBA for as levels wouldbe nice thankyou very much.
14) Find someone i can love.
15) Enjoy the year i spent so much of hte last one crying.

i think that will do for now.
All the love and hope for 2009 i have in my body right now.
xoxo

Recently i've been neglecting livejournal shamefully. Appart from daily obsessive checks of anything to do with tokio hotel but THAT is something i cannot even go into right now.
Ok so the biggies......

Results= Thursday. I'm scared now lol
Not htat they matter too much because i don't need amazing results to get onto the course which i WANT to do
But i would like good results. 
A/B's in everything please =D (and maybe an A* in maths n history because ive been good) haha

Still waiting for ebay buys grr what the hell its been over a week im dying here
People need to have faster posting. lol.

Tennis presentation and EVERYONE for the club is going.
Well junior wise i mean you know idk about the adults i nt reli bothered abwt them! lol
But i need a dress.
Atm im stuck between 3 i think i'm going to order them all try them on and then see which one looks best on cause some might not look good.
Especially as summer holld have taken a toll on weight haha
too much time to binge grr.
But when i go back to (omg cant belive im saying this) college!! then i shouldnt have as much time as school is from 9-4 so that eliminates a lot of the day.
But i am like REALLY close to a zillion mac D's and subway which will be the downfall.
Altho i could go marks and sparks which isnt as bad but its a LOT more expensive.

I go off topic way to easily.

Hmmm not much else really. 

Finnished my room =D almost anyways still got the change the curtains but thats not bad really.  It looks rather good act im quite proud seen as though i had to do it all myself.

Anyways

love

xoxo

Ok...so my computers been broken.
Which would explain the abscence of entries. Sorry. 
I've missed not writing anything down, partly because i never realise
how much it let me offload. 
=]
So, i'm back now, for good i hope, means i can finally get back on track.
Too much to do.
i start college on the 1st Septemer...excited much.
a LOT!
There has to be like a billion things i wish i could do.
I dont really have anything that much to say, 
not much has changed. As ever.

Love.

xoxo